my blah blah blahs~

Ugh. Saying that I turn you off hurts. I mean, c’mon… How can you “just” say it? It’s offensive!

“Name something you put in your mouth but don’t swallow.” -Family Feud

Another day spent just catching up on chores. Seems as though I’ve spent alllll of my money officially. Time to cut off meet ups that will cost me. The only thing I can provide will be my love for them :) Sigh, oh gosh that sounded pathetic, I know.

This feels so bittersweet leaving. I’m so not prepared in a way and so ready to move forward. I can’t grasp a single feeling about my move. At times I feel nervous because, like I keep telling everyone, I want everything to work out smoothly. I have to make sure that my job, my girls’ daycare, and my apt are all in the same area at the same time not too far from my boyfriend’s store. I want to take my time but at the same time I want to be done with it already. I’m anxious to see my love, the long distance had a toll on us. I’m excited to spend so many amazing times together in Boston. In the end, know I’ll be happy.

So, I’ve been trying to make sure I go there to start with a FRESH start. I’ve been convincing myself that there’s nothing more to expect from my move but a good bond in my relationship with my boyfriend. I’ve convinced myself that even though I’ve moved for my relationship, living there is awesome and even if we won’t work out then living there is a benefit. I know that I won’t have my own family to depend on, my own friends for support, and my own home yet. It’s a lot that I’m sacrificing but I feel as if it happens with any marriage where you have to relocate. It’s for the best.

I can’t even say that this is for the best since I can never be 100% sure. But who says not going through this change is for the best either. No one will ever know. Just do it.